IN MEMORY

ISN'T SHE A TOTAL BETTY

In Life I loved you dearly
In death I love you still
In my heart you hold a place,
That no one could ever fill

Today It has been a year since my mom passed away and up until I started writing this I didn't think today was going to be all that bad..... I miss her more than ever, but I guess it's a good thing that I don't feel that it's been that long. Mostly because I feel like I'm constantly surrounded by her not a day goes by that I don't think oh my mom did that, or that reminds me of my mom or my kids will do something off the wall that I know she is just chuckling about and I guess this way I don't even have to call her because I know she already knows. It's like I can open the door at any moment and her presence will just surround me if I'm having a bad day. And I'm greatfull for that ,otherwise I would have no idea how to cope without her. She was just amazing at everything she did and of course I wish she was still here but I understand how difficult life was for her with her cancer, her arthritis ,raising all of us kids, loosing a son, and missing her own parents. That I feel it would be unfair for me to be sad that she's gone after enduring so much. So when ever I'm sad, unsure, or loose complete faith I just try seeing myself through her eyes and know how lucky I am to have a mother like her and I know she is proud of me and thats PRICELESS...............

You can shed tears that she is gone
or you can smile because she has lived.

You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.

Your heart can be empty because you can't see her
or you can be full of the love you shared.

You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.

You can remember her and only that she's gone
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.

You can cry and close your mind, be empty and turn your back
or you can do what she'd want: smile, open your eyes, love and live on.